Sometimes I like to pretend that I'm normal by wearing 'normal' clothes. Pretend is probably the operative word here, because I have had someone say I couldn't look normal if I tried. And then I remember that it makes me depressed to be in conservative colors and cuts all the time. I had almost forgotten what it felt like to feel attractive since school started. I mean, of course I put aside personal style to an extent because of the kids- it's a necessity, but even on the weekends, I had just been so blah about dressing, it was dragging down my whole mood. *Update- two of my kids said to me yesterday that I dress too conservatively. They are both girls.
So I have this skirt that I love, but that I always worry about. It's white and fluffy and makes me think of ballets with swans and the like. But I'm afraid of it. I do sometimes worry about being judged for wearing things that make me happy. I do want to be that girl that people look at and think wistfully, 'oh my lord, I wish I was wearing what she was wearing; I wish I looked like
that'. And with this skirt, I worry. But on Sunday, I was tired of being safe and all that. I just wanted an outfit that made me smile. I wore the skirt and, wouldn't you know it, I got SO many compliments it was ridiculous.
Stripper Heels (yeah, they've gone away now- I did NOT realize what the platform on them would look like before buying)
Silver & Turquoise Heart Necklace (Gift)
As a note- this is not THE outfit I was wearing, just the skirt. I'll try to replace it with a picture of what I was really wearing. And as an additional note, this is a picture of the apartment before I worked my magic on it, while it was still a huge empty space, just wanting to be loved. I'll have to post about that soon.
At Starbucks in the morning, a woman got out of line to come over to me and say, 'I just had to tell you, I love your outfit so much! I saw you in church as you walked up the aisle and I was just thinking how great it was!' Then when I was at Whole Foods getting some last-minute supplies for the brunch I was making for my family, I had the women in front of and behind me comment. The woman behind me said, 'I love your skirt, it's just fabulous' and the woman in front of me asked, 'why are you wearing that?' (which I correctly interpreted as 'why are you dressed up'). I explained that I was wearing it, "because I can", which made the other woman laugh. She told me that she couldn't understand how someone could ask that question and we started chatting. She again told me how much she loved the skirt and said, 'I think you're just a fabulous fairy princess come down to earth'. It was the strangest and yet most adorable compliment, and basically exactly what I wanted to hear.
I think the video for this song is magical. Maybe because it reminds me of snippets of the best parts of college.
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